So I've been trying to fix up my LJ by re-skinning it and making new layouts.... but I just couldn't make it work the way I want it!  I guess LJ is too limiting for me in terms of creative freedom.  Either that or I just couldn't make it work.

Finally I've decided to move back to blogger and use my Nuke site instead since I haven't had the inspiration to play with it lately (how can I in such depressing/ pathetic times...).

So to my LJ friends,  see you on the other side! I'll make sure to post whenever I have updates.

Update your links everyone!  

It's almost close to 8 weeks and counting... and all I've done is wait.... waiting for the Executioner to finally drop the guillotine and he hasn't come yet.

Where is he?  What's taking him so long? 

I remember he called me up through my cellphone to hand me my sentence with a promise that I will have my chance to present my case and defend it.   The chance never came.  And so I willingly put myself at the chopping block.  I had no choice.  I am powerless.  He has the upper hand. 

It's frustrating, sad,  depressing... living this way for the past 56 days. 

How long do I have to wait?  It's all up to him really. 

So I'll just sit here and pray that the Executioner will come.... if not today, maybe the day after or the day after that or....

As promised... click on!

I don't want to sound so profound but given the situation... I just can't help it sometimes.  Here goes...

In some situations words spoken are better than words written.  It's how we say it, how our eyes speak, how our hands move or how our bodies shift that make all the difference in what we want to convey.  Sometimes it's even not enough to just say it.  You need to see and you need feel it.  Like when words are written, it takes so much interpretation that lead to confusion and misunderstanding. 

Sigh.

When will all this end...

I'm back!  Four days worth of Shanghai adventures.  That was quite the experience.  It was fun while it lasted.  I will post pix through my multiply site, which I haven't touched in years (didn't really know what to do with it) but I have yet to go through all 161 photos I took there.  So hang on.

Here are some notable places we visited:

• The Bund- The great divide between the old and new faces of Shanghai, right by the Huangpu river.  It's almost like walking in the streets of Europe with the British Concession in the background.
  
• Shanghai Museum and the Parliement Building- Memorable experience: my ultra reliable Benetton sneakers (which I've used for years) have decided to die right then and there which prompted me to buy new rubber shoes (no this is not an excuse to by a new pair, it really happened!)
• Xintiandi (pronounced Shin-tian-di, get it right folks!)- A.K.A the French Concession.  The great expat hang-out which is littered with European bars and French architecture... its really quite a view.  Memorable experience: Some guy who looked like Big Moose snuck into one of my pix as I stood in front of a German pub.  Yikes!  And get this, the pub had a pinoy band playing songs like Sumayaw Sumunod and Anak much to our surprise.  German Pub, Pinoy band, at the French Concession in Shanghai... go figure!
• Magnolia Theatre to watch the New Shanghai Circus-  This was definitely enjoyable.  I loved the motorcycle stunt where 5 cyclists were traversing a huge metal dome and managed to avoid each other!
• Nanjing Road- Got a taste for high-end brands? This is the place to shop.  Prices are relatively the same as the stores here but they have more choices plus there are more European brands there, some you haven't even heard of.  Just to circle the entire street is amazing especially at night.
• Madame Tussauds Shanghai- So if you have SPARE CASH, this is something you can visit, it's along West Nanjing Road and it has almost the same wax figures you can see in London plus other prominent Chinese figures that we don't necessarily know.  We couldn't resist having our pix taken with the likes of George Clooney, Prince William, Brad Pitt..... well you get the drift :P
• Qi Pu Lu- Bargain heaven.  Think Greenhills.  Put your bargaining powers to the test!
• Oriental Pearl Tower- This huge rocket-like structure is the first thing you see by the Bund... but its not the tallest structure in Shanghai.  We didn't get to climb it since we ran out of cash but it looks interesting from below.
• Jin Mao Building- So we decided to climb this instead.  Its a building 88 stories high and is the fourth tallest in the world.  Spectacular view from above... if you're not afraid of heights that is...
• Super Brand Mall- If you have a lot of spare time because you're waiting for your evening flight, this mall is worth exploring, just because its probably the only mall in Shanghai thats pretty decent and easy to navigate through.

So that's pretty much all the places we visited packed in a 4 day trip.  Of course lots of adventure along the way including overpriced taxi cab rides, the sound of people spitting wherever and whenever, the dirtiest bathrooms in the face of the planet, the great language barrier and some rude folks along the way... I say its an adventure worth repeating.... especially since you're a lot smarter the next time around.

So now that I'm back, reality hits you like a ton of rocks especially when you know you're heart (yes I said it) is on the chopping block.  I'm just trying to enjoy the last few moments I have with it.

Oops sorry about that... I'll let you know when I can post pix soon!

Here's something to look forward to. 

We're going to Shanghai!  That will be me and my best friend Lorena, who found this tour package for a steal in the newspaper.  Her timing is perfect.  It will be my first time to go on vacation not just because I love to travel and see new places because I just wanna DISAPPEAR-- at least for just 4 short days.  We're leaving on Friday.

I've been to Beijing, Shenzhen and of course HK before but never Shanghai, so this is something to look forward to.

And for those who are wondering, I am still in 'limbo' with the 'thing' that has happened to me.  I should be able to report 'something' by next week and I'm still hanging on to my 'Last Stand' lest I fail, either way its something I will write about.  I am still miserable (something you'd feel when you're in limbo) but in the face of all that has happened (and still is) I'm trying to keep my chin up.  Its a grand effort but it must be done in order to survive.

It's Shanghai or bust baby!

I made my last stand today.  I figured since everything is falling apart already, might as well make everything fall apart the right away, if there even were such a thing. 

In worst case scenarios, you try to do the best that you could so in the end, you walk away with a peace of mind. 

But it doesn't stop there unfortunately, sometimes all we can do is wait and hope....

I heart Brandon Boyd and the rest of Incubus for making me forget the depressive pathetic state I am in for 90 minutes straight!

Needless to say the whole concert was a blast!  I can't believe they sang songs from almost every album they made from S.C.I.E.N.C.E, Make Yourself, Morning View, A Crow Left of the Murder and of course their latest Light Grenades! I was totally out of my mind when they sang Drive (my all time college days soundtrack) and then there was Stellar and Wish You Were Here, I was beyond myself right after that.  And of course it did help when Brandon Boyd did a little strip tease... just seeing him bouncing around the stage half-naked is enough to bring out my inner-high-school patootsiness... yeah me and Carlo were practically ogling.

What makes the concert better than their last concert here?  For one its 30 minutes longer plus they sang songs from almost all their albums, that everyone was singing along in every set.   I thought that was pretty cool.

Just one major setback... I still can't believe they didn't sing Dig!!

Ah well.... you can't have everything....

Perfect timing.  Something to get my mind off recent events that have rendered me too depressed to even function.

Incubus is back in Manila!  Watched them the first time and watching them again.  Can't get enough.  Me and my concert buddy, Carlo will be there in our comfy lower box seats. 

Anyone going?  See you guys there!

Space, the final frontier.  

No, that's not what I'm talking about.  I'm talking about this kind of  S  P  A  C  E.

Space is good.  Space makes you think, it gives you that inner peace.  A place to relax and be alone.  A temporary recluse from the chaos of the world below.

Right now I'm not a big fan of it.  Right now space spells uncertainty, impending doom, a disaster waiting to happen.  It spells THE END of fighting a losing battle... no matter how hard I try.

It sucks that I'm in the middle of all this space.